Angelic Thoughts

pika-who?

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 23:30:21 GMT

Ryan gave me Pokemon Diamond for V-day and I'm totally into it. Next time I hit a party I'm bringing it so you all better be ready for some fightin' and trading! Woot!

I'm tired though, long week at work.

A Room With a View...

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 19:27:12 GMT

So for those who didn't find out by the wonder that is Facebook, I am now a fully employed Graphics Assistant at Somersault. I'm very happy and excited about all of this. So far the work load has been light (After the craziness that was HallMark) but we are ramping up for a couple of holiday spots. I get to decorate my office. They may still hire a second assistant but until then the room is mine to do with as I please. I think that's a pretty sweet deal myself. I'm going to paint one of the walls and then I'll hang some stuff. I need to sit down and decide what's going on these walls. Hmmm...

Other than that? Not too much at the moment, but I'm sure there'll be more to report in the future.

Woot!

Pass me another Rootbeer...

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 02:56:49 GMT

Well, Well so it's been a bit since I last spoke to you all. What's happening with me you ask? Many a thing of course!

My Birthday came and went. I received many well wishes. A few friends of mine wanted to go listen to the Beach Boys at Ravina so we had a picnic and I baked a cake. It seemed to go over well though there are a few improvements I wish to make next time. Live and learn. Jenny gave me some cute fake food and a Devil Bush mug. Ryan got me a Wii. So then I bought Zelda. And it's totally awesome. Yeah. I played 2 days strait and my arm was sore for days afterwards.

Then I got a call about an interview at this place. Passed a phone interview, went in this past week for a face to face. I think it went well. I REALLY want this job. I'm working hard to try and have something new for them every time I talk to them. Busting my butt on my web redesign right now.

Oh, I have a reel up. Check it out. There some stuff I want to work to replace, but I feel like it's a pretty solid start. Let me know what you all think.

http://www.angstyangel.net/art/reel.html

Keep your eyes peeled for a new look. Much love!

I want this job so bad!!!

These things we do...

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 23:01:28 GMT

I'm in LA territory now. Mere and Greg's new place is nice. Their bathroom has a few issues but it should be cleared up soon enough. It's been a fun visit, but tonight I'm on my way to San Diego and to Ryan. I'm heading out a lot later than I wanted but I'm getting a free ride from a friend of Mere's who's headed to comiccon as well.

Oh Virgin Air was about as nice as Qatar Air so I recommend it. I've watched a ton of movies this trip. United had a crappy movie set up, but all my other flights have had cool tv things. I caught up on movies I missed out on. Some were ok. Premonotion was pretty bad, Number 23 was ok, Happily Never After I couldn't watch more than 20min of. That was just about aweful. Bridge to Teribithia was nice, Last Mimzy was cute. I really liked Meet the Robinsons and Happy Feet. TMNT was fun too. Ghost Rider was pretty bad. I don't remember what else I saw at the moment. Oh, I did rewatch Hot Fuzz.

By the way, I'm in love with Simon Pegg. He's sort of replaced Jude Law for me since I'm not big on guys who get caught doing their maids by their wives. I guess British and funny does it for me when it comes to actors. Then again, I do have a thing for Colbert ^.~

Love you babe!

Stuff n' Stuff (Oh and Harry Potter 7 without spoilers)

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 01:19:10 GMT

Ok, so I said pictures soon but alas I can't seem to get them from the camera to a computer. I think the batteries may be too low and that's why it isn't working this time. Pictures will probably wait until I'm home then. Sorry. I wanted to post pictures of the harry Potter book line.

Yeah we waited in line for the book, and met some really nice people while there. It actually seemed to me that the line at least half consisted of people from out of the country. There were some kids from I think it was Finland or the Netherlands at the front. Josh and I got in line about 8:00. There was a couple in front of us from Conneticut who had reserved a copy at a different store and just came to wait in line for a while and see what it was like at the big store in London. Ah, we waited at the Waterstones Piccadilly, the largest book store in London.

Vicki, it turns out, was a children's librarian (Who loves Harry Potter) and was blogging her experience for the kids and friend at home. Her journal is at http://hpnorwalk.wordpress.com/ and she has a flicker account with pictures from the line, including one of Her, her husband, Josh and Me with my eye's closed.

Vicki and I got interview for CBS because we were americans waiting for a book in London. I texted Ryan but he said he didn't see me on. Anyone see me? Oh well, maybe I can find something on youtube ^.~

We finally got our books about 2:00am. We were so tired, we didn't think about the party going on. We bought our books and walked out. I had forgetten to check the other floors of the book store and see if there was anything cool going on. They did make the store downstairs kinda cool though. We got on the bus and started reading, then I climbed in bed and read until the sun came up.

My No-Spoiler feelings on the book: It was rather slow about the first half way through, but then the pace picked up. The ending came together nicely with some pleasent twists, though over all Rowling held true to her comfortable format. I wish she had taken more chances with the structure of the book. However, I am satisfied and I must say: I knew it! I look forward to talking about it with people once they've read it.

Josh's Birthday was a good time. We saw Transformers, ate and bowled. I was really aweful, as always.

I love London, I'd like to work here one day. It's and awesome city, and the accent is oh so nice ^.~

Next stop: LA and San Diego ComicCon

Which bridge was it?

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 14:35:22 GMT

I've made it to London. After a bit of drama and a long set of flights I'm here at Josh's. My Lay over in Doha wasn't bad. If they flew between more places I would definetly recomend Qatar Airlines.

I took a bus tour today. It was kind of cold, but I got to see lots of cool buildings. I really like the way London looks. Friday I'm gonna head to a Waterstones to wait in line for the new HP book and maybe join in some great HP fun. Saturday night we're going out for Josh's birthday.

I was hoping to go see a haunted castle but I don't think there are many in London. I'll be checking out the Tower though, and maybe even Tower bridge. ^.^ Pictures soon.

With Love, From Shanghai

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 12:13:37 GMT

I'm hanging out here in Shanghai. So far it's been pretty fun. Eddie has a cute golden retriever who's very sweet. He and Mamiko are having a dog party on Saturday since tomorrow is his 1st birthday. They are getting all their dog loving friends together and going to a park (beach?) for a picnic type thing. I'll be sure to take pictures of all the dogs. I tried to upload some of the pictures I took but I don't know how to do it on Eddie's computer so they'll have to wait until London.

Japan was fun. I took the train Everywhere which pretty much wore me out. There wasn't much to do in Nagoya, though I did go to the robot museum which was pretty cool. I took a train out to the country to spend a night with Janelle, then hit the train again to Kokura on Kyushu to meet my sister's friend Shizuka whom she knew in high school. The day after I headed to Tokyo to explore Madhouse Studios and then headed back to Nagoya to sleep. My final day I spent running about in Akiba and other close parts of Tokyo until I hit a small inn to sleep before waking up early for the train to the plane. Like I said, lots of trains. The rail pass was very worth it.

My fist day in shanghai I slept and read as I was very tired of all the running around in Japan. Then I spent a day in search of a working ATM and the entrance to the YuuYuan Gardens. I found the ATM but not how to get into the gardens. Yesterday I went out with Eddie and a friend of his to buy stuff for their party and then did a little shopping while he worked. After we went for Indian food, tired of Chinese, which was wonderful. All the food here is very good and pretty cheap too. Also, the McDonald's here sells a drink that consists of fruity syrup, sprite, and vanilla soft serve on top that you mix around. I think it's delicious, though a bit on the sweet side. I wish they sold it in the states. If they did I'd go get them all the time.

I hear everyone's getting ready for HARI PO- (Harry Potter) to come out. I can't wait to see the movie. it's gonna be the first thing I do when I catch up to Ryan in San Diego. Well ok, maybe not the first thing, but pretty close to ^.~ I miss him and everyone at home a lot. I hope LuLu isn't hiding too much, I know she's sad I'm not around, but I know Ryan is taking very good care of her.

I'm looking forward to seeing Josh in London. I hope we'll have lots of time together. I miss him too. I heard there's very good Indian food in London so maybe he'll know a place. I hope he's got a good haunted castle picked out ^.^ I cant wait to get the new Harry Potter book too. I'll also likely be checking out Japan Expo while I'm there. We'll see ^.^

Missing you all,

ES

The Arrival

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 01:21:54 GMT

I'm here in Japan now. Just letting everyone know.

I'll try to take some pictures to share with everyone soon.

3 hours to take off...

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 13:33:33 GMT

Well, I'm getting ready to head to the airport. I'm sort of in a state of disbelief. As in, I can't believe I'm doing this. Well, it'll be great.

Sorry to everyone I wasn't able to catch before leaving. And I didn't mean to miss Big City. I wanted to go, but I've been sleeping weird (which is perfect for being arround the world).

I'll post picture updates whenever I can. See you all around ^.~

With Love and adventure.

stuff and stuff

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 21:09:43 GMT

About a week and a half and I'll be off and away.

This weekend there's a lot going on. JAD and ACen Matsuri fill the weekend each, but then there's work Saturday, and Sunday is Erin's wedding. I'm not sure I'll get much time at Matsuri or JAD. Ryan and I still need to pick out a wedding gift. I know, waiting till the last min is so bad.

I'm just about set for my trip. I need to get my China Visa still, and take LuLu to the vet before I go. I also still need to buy my ticket home from San Diego, but I've been waiting on Ryan so we could try and fly together. I'm probably going to sit down and start working out just what I want to take with me. Mostly cloths, a few books for all the 10 hour flights. I don't want to carry much extra stuff as I'd rather keep my bags small. I'll also probably try and get a flickr account or something so I can upload photos durring my trip.

I guess I'll keep you posted.

What time did you say?

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 23:32:14 GMT

For a while I've been thinking about getting a tattoo but never really did more than talk about it. Partly cause I know my mom would find it disapointing, and partly because until I have a solid job I won't be able to afford the one I'd like to get. Today as I was driving in to work I started thinking about it. I don't know what got me going, but it really made me want to draw and work on my own stuff all day instead of going to work. Of course I went to work anyhow (am there now). If I'm not too tired when I get home I'll probably start finding reference or something.

ACen is starting to get more and more time consuming. Honestly I don't know how I'd do it all if I had a full time gig. As it is now, I'm starting to take on all sorts of little projects for people. I'm really excited about working with so many different people and getting to do work I'm really interested in.

In other news, I got my end date for Optimus this week. I'm not as upset about it as I first thought I'd be. I'm a little down, but more than anything I'm relieved. Mostly cause now the waiting is over. I look forward to moving on to the next big thing, and I have a so much I want to do. Soon enough (don't know when) I'll be heading to LA so I can break into films, and I'm hoping to do a round the world trip this summer, though I need to manage food and airfare money. we'll see how everything turns out.

o/~ Somebody Hates Me... o/~

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 17:57:03 GMT

These things are just so strange sometimes. You think you've finally got things figured out, started forming a plan, and then someone tells you something you didn't expect. Oh well, I'm going to just start forgeting everyone and the 'way things are' and just do what fits me. Be around the people who make sense to me. You have fun with your games and posturing because I know that as long as I'm true to myself and honest, I'm still gonna come out on top.

o/~ And I hate Somebody Too... o/~

Sigh...

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 05:15:53 GMT

I broke a tooth... or maybe just kinda crushed it... on a bagle dog...

*sigh*

There was a little piece of what I assume was probably bone in the hotdog and while I was chewing a heard/felt *Crunch* I spit it out and didn't notice till later that I mashed my tooth in. It doesn't hurt, probably cause the tooth had had a filling. I'm guessing that probably made it weaker. Who knows, but since I don't have any insurence I had to go find which plans my old doctor is on. This will likely be a costly fix.

Holy Shit! A post!

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 23:34:20 GMT

Ok so I haven't posted for like 3 months now. Sorry but I've been rather busy with work and all that. Last month I finally got back in to at least occationally reading everyone's journals. I'll try not to neglect you all anymore.

Optimus is coming to a close. I don't know when exactly but I've started to look into my post Optimus plan. All of it makes me rather moody.

I have a crap load of things to do. Between MAPS/ACen, Work, and my own things there's little time to sit a do nothing without feeling guilty about it afterwards.

Oh, I found this awesome long black coat by Victorian Maiden on YahooAuctions Japan, but it's super expensive. If I was working full time now I'd buy it in a second, but as it is it'll probably dissapear and I'll have to hope I find another one that suits me next year. *sigh* I'm so frustrated with myself.

To become serious in a new way...

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 07:13:17 GMT

So I haven't posted in forever, as usual. Only recently did I start reading journals again. I've been swamped between Optimus and Nickel City. But it's good. I'm glad to be working again and I feel like I've acomplished at least a little something.

There has been a wide combination of good and bad. There have been a couple of disipointments, but I'm trying my best not to let them hold me down. The cold and grayness of the onsetting winter doesn't help. Mostly the grayness. Also, I can't find my long coat. It was packed away and now I can't find it in any of the boxes I thought it'd be in. *sigh*

Yesterday I had a long talk with one of the editors at Optimus. He was having a bottle of wine with his assistant and getting ready for a long night of Wii comercials and was looking for a bit of distraction. In the end he gave me some good advise and offered me a few possibilities. I don't know how much editing compares to compositing and graphics but it seems much of the Post world is very aprentice based. At first this put me off. I mean, I wanna start doing great work right away, but looking at it now, while not my ideal, it looks like the begining of a real adventure in life.

There are a lot of things I want to do and places I want to go. I want to be able to do it all, but I know it will be hard, and there may be sacrifices sometimes. No matter what, I'm going to do my best.

For some mommentary bliss...

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 17:46:39 GMT

Holy Crap! I got it! I got the internship! I'm so excited!

Suffering through food poisoning paid off. This is so awesome. I start the 26th. Guess this means I need to sit down and really hammer out my reel. FXphd and I have much work to do the next couple of months.

From the front lines to the infirmiry...

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 07:36:29 GMT

So yesterday morning (Tuesday) was my interview. I feel pretty good about it and think it went rather well. It was at a place called Optimus. I'm realy excited and hope that when I hear back it's good news. I think Optimus is the perfect kind of fit for me (And hopefully me for it). Well until I hear back I'll be waiting in anticipation. Wish me luck! Man, I hope I get this.

I also woke up to a bad bout of what I'm pretty sure was food poisoning. I was pretty sick (ie. puking) but told myself that I could continue being sick once the interview was over so I needed to move my butt. At first I thought it might've just been nerves but I'd never been that sick before so I wasn't sure. I made it through the interview with no problems (Thank god!!) and after my interview I headed to school before planning on having lunch with Josh. Unfortunetly I got sick again at school so I canceled lunch and just headed home. The rest of the day was rather rough until I was finally able to sleep off most of it. I couldn't eat anything all day, threw up a lot, and every muscle in my body got sore. Luckly all that is left is the sore muscles. My stomach is a little tender but that should pass in the next day or so.

Could it be? We can do it!

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 23:50:43 GMT

OMG! They want me to come in and INTERVIEW!

I'm so excited I'm freaking out. I hope I make a good impression. I want to do so good they're like, "Yup, you're the girl we want."

More news to come once something's happened.

A special day... for ME!

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 17:12:17 GMT

In roughly an hour I'll officially be 24. I don't feel old or anything. Tonight my family and I are planning on doing dinner. Ryan might not be able to make it since he's been working crazy hours again. At least now he seems to be on a project he enjoys. We'll probably catch a movie when he comes by.

I was thinking Saturday might be nice to hang out with a few friends if anyone's interested. There's a lot of movies I want to see so we could always see another one, or if someone would like to host me at there apartment (John? Dustin? ^.~) I could cook or something.

Sunday my long time family friend Ed is getting married. I always like weddings. Good food and fun times.

I've moved home. The last few weeks have been crazy and hectic. Over all everything has been rather frustrating. While it's great I have this to fall back on, this isn't at all were I wanted to be. I think for now I'm going to get myself a regular job so I can save some money and go back to working on a demo reel, once I've unpacked a little. Yeah, I hate moving so much. Yuck! Thanks to everyone who helped me with my crap.

I got an email from Optimus on Monday, but they haven't called for an interview. It's a bit of a let down since I really wanted this chance but I don't know what more I could have done. They only wanted resumes and cover letters.

Accidentially on Purpose...

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 15:08:18 GMT

So I haven't updated in a long while. Not a whole lot is new with me though. There's been a lot of stuff going on, some good and some bad.

The 2nd was Ryan's B-day. We went out with his family the Sunday before and did Red Robin and Monster House, both which were good. We also got in a halo night at Dan and Jasmin's recently which was fun. I sucked it up most of the time but I did ok on BullShiz Shotguns.

Yesterday was Ryan and I's 3rd year Anniversary. Sunday night he treated me to Melting Pot and a movie. We saw Pulse which was so bad everyone was laughing, but it was a good night. Yesterday I made dinner and a cake and we exchanged gifts. I gave him a cool figure and he gave me a gift certificate for an uber spa day. I'm pretty excited about the spa day. I'm probably going to schedule it for after I move. Oh yeah...

I'm Moving again. Which means I need some of my wonderful friends to Help carry things. There will of course be the usual Free Pizza and Beer. It shouldn't be to tough this time. I'll likely be renting a Uhaul and a hand cart for those heavy boxes, plus I have some smaller boxes for my books this time. Mostly I need hands and eyes to help with furniture and stuff. I'll be moving Aug 26 or 27 so clear a day for me. I'll update you with more as things are set. Check back again for an update!

Meme Time!

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 18:46:28 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (Always missing you babe.)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (Nothing good on in the summer.)	✓ I own lots of books. (Reading is my favorite pass time.)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games. (Kingdom Hearts!!)	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (Who isn't at this point in their lives, not to mention today's social/political climate.)	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now. (J.O.B.)
✓ I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair. (Getting there.)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (When I was little we played with fake nails and stuff...)	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (Legalize, Regulate, Tax.)	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent. (I don't think I know what this is refering to...)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (Sometimes.)	✓ I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (Woot for PJ's!!!)
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (Sometimes.)	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (LUV!!! ^.^ CHU!!)	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Being lost, and not knowing are different.)	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (Learning is awesome. I want to study Math, Physics, and Business.)	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (Alcohol!! I won't ever do drugs.)	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music. (There is a bit of good country.)
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (And dress up in cool costumes.)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	✓ Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (Definetly.)
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (When I have them.)	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can. (I love socks, my feet always get cold without them.)	× I have jumped off a bridge. (Littereally?)	✓ I love sea turtles. (Who doesn't?)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Well, I was.)
× I hate office jobs. (Indifferent.)	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much. (I didn't know that was possible!)	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (Like Pens and stuff...)	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (I donno, do I? I think Ryan said I mumbled once or something.)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (I'm not ashamed of my faith,but I'm not weird about it either.)	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (I will collect anything that catches my eyes. I'm a bit of a completist so stop me before I get out of hand.)
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (Occasionally)	✓ I'm an artist. (I like to think.)	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (This should say Pillows, unless I can count Ryan as a stuffed Chu... ^.~)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (My internet friends are my real life friends.)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses. (Ooo... They're both very nice...)
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (Kinda have to.)
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (I wish!)
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before. (Long time ago.)	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (Everyone has problems, not everyone tries to fix them.)	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (GHOST HUNTERS!!)
✓ I can't stand being alone. (Well, I can but it really isn't a whole lot of fun.)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time. (CHU!)	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (Hahahaha!)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (No, but it sure does help.)
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language. (Not really anymore. Oneday I'll work to get it back.)	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (Remember when I fell asleep next to the DDR Machine at DQ?)
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (Yeah, that's me.)
× I have no piercings.	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (Resturants. Horay for 24hour diners.)	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (I think we all wonder why we're here at one time or another. One of those 'Meaning of Life' questions.)	✓ I like most animals better than most people. ("A person is smart, People are stupid")
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (Haha!)
× I am compulsively honest. (I'm Always honest.)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. (Hmm...)	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. (Yeah, I'm silly like that.)
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk. (Yummy!!!)	✓ I obsessively wash my hands. (Not obsessively, but I don't like them feeling grimy.)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me. (My Watch. Key's, Wallet, Phone.)	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. (Aww! ^.^)	✓ I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (I would've if I used any.)	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. (I've liked a lot of bad movies.)
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (That could be cool, Near Death Experience and all.)	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (I wish I did. Well maybe not weekly, but often.)	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (Lulu would be too needy for me.)	✓ I've gone skinny-dipping. (That Counts!!!)	✓ I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	✓ I have a thing for redheads. (ME!! Well, dyed but still awesome, who doesn't like Brick Red on a girl.)
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (Either is good for me.)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (Despite wanting to sleep less.)	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (Haha, that's awesome.)	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (I thought it was suitable.)	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Late night walks...

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 08:03:28 GMT

Not a whole lot going on right now. I've been wasting time while I seek out bill paying employment. It's weird because half the time I feel so motivated and the other half deflated because of rediculous things.

Good news is I have an interview early next week at a place I'm really excited about. I'm hoping I can show my enthusiasum when I go and they decide they want me for the job.

After that is ComicCon for the weekend. I'm leaving Wednesday afternoon and come back Monday. I leave Monday morning but I have a 5 hour layover so I won't be back till late. I need to make a decission in regards to Lulu. I was going to ask a friend to check on her but Erin's going out of town too, and it might just be better to board her so she isn't alone for most of the time. Of course that means I need to run her in for shots so I will likely do that tomorrow or Friday.

I'm very excited about ComicCon. There are a lot of things I want to do and many people I hope to meet and talk to. I'm going to buy some snacks before I go though so I'll have stuff to munch. I have some Granola bars and such so I'll pack those too. Maybe buy a few Vitamin Waters... hmm... I need to make sure I have some cash on hand too, and I need to do laundry... So many things to get in order before I go.

Smells like waffles...

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 05:18:04 GMT

So I'm half hazed cause I was napping a lot today on the couch.

I spend most of the night and past two days reading LKH's new book. Good but not great, I had a few complaints about some of the characters being angsty for too long. And her writing is starting to feel repeditive. She tends to use the same words a lot... I donno, the earlier books in the series had more punch and I don't think anything has really beaten Obsidian Butterfly. I just feel like some of the characters should probably be more grown up than they seem to be. Maybe.

Been looking for a job, part-full that pays decent. I'm trying to make use of the bookkeeping skills I've learned and get something using those. The idea is I get a job that will pay the bills and finish up a reel. There's an internship I'm interested in pushing for, post stuff, but I wanted to have a job solidified. I had an interview at a place so I'm hoping they hire me. I'll keep everyone posted I suppose.

I've been trying to watch the end of season 2 of ghost hunters. I think the show is cool, though everytime they have to do one of those fake/reinacted type conversations it's funny cause it sounds so forced. But I guess it's a good contrast to the actual investigation footage when the guys are actually trying to catch stuff. There are a few really cool episodes, but as always you wish the footage had been better. I'm always like, oh why didn't they put that camera there, or use that thing over there? Oh well, still good tv, though Brian is annoying as hell, why do they keep showing him and his bitching?

Never understand...

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 06:13:35 GMT

Last weekend Ryan and I went up to the Waterfront Film Festival. Our room at the Park house Inn was lovely and we saw many good movies. I drove and upon returning home we caught an evening showing of Cars. I'll talk more about the movies later maybe. We were going to try and write reviews for Aint It Cool News so maybe I'll just do that and point you there later.

The past couple days I've slept in and not done too much. Well today I did some dishes. I've been rather low energy. Oh but I did do This. I didn't make the footage, but I did comp it and color correct it a little using Shake. I don't think I can actually use it for a reel or anything but it was nice to be able to actually make something that looks kinda cool. I like putting things together and I had to problem solve a lot to work in Shake since I've never really done a whole project in Shake before.

I had a nice motivating chat with Rory at the Tap last night and came home feeling pretty good, but once more I feel rather deflated and frustrated with things. The whole job thing probably bothers me most since if I had a job other things would probably be better. But then that bothers me too. I'd like to say I can sit here and just let it all go or shrug it off, but that's what I've always done and that isn't good enough. I don't know why I'm being moody now. I wish I wasn't. I think I'm just getting really stressed out. Not knowing what's going to happen in September really freaks me out.

Next week I have to mail in the form to my landlord saying I won't be living here for another year. Where will I be living? I wish I knew.

I'll leave the light on for you...

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 06:36:53 GMT

The past week has been full. There were ups and downs and a few moments in between, but life is so full of twists and turns.

Last Thursday I went to Dinner with my Mom, Brother, and Tracy. Kegon's was yummy as always. The Golden Shrimp was of course delicious.
Friday I mostly spent making myself upset. I don't remember much else. Oh I think I orginized my music a bit.
Saturday was the Play Concert which was very nice, even if the encore of One Winged Angel was a bit odd. The night ended roughly but that will happen sometimes.
Sunday I spent upset again but then went to John's and drank with some people until the right time to leave came.
Monday was of course the day of Meat and I ate a lot of it... and not much else... oof!
Tuesday Ryan and I did $5 movie night and saw Xmen 3. It wasn't bad but it wans't good either. A bit of a let down, but I wasn't really expecting more out of it.
Today I had Lunch with Alissa and then met Erin for hot cocoa later. It was nice as I got to have nice long talks with both of them. Hopefully there will be more in the future as well.

Other than that I've started a few projects. I've started making a new dress, a Victorian Maiden replica using a blue berry print. I still need lace and some Rick-Rack. I'm thinking of taking the moring for the Textile Discount Outlet, if I wake up. I've also finally started on MAPS's books. Bah so time consuming. I wish I knew quickbooks a little better cause it'd probably be easier. Last of all, but most importantly, I've stared on my job type adventure, as in trying to get one.

I'm now going to make a ToDo list in, for the most part, no particular order:

~~Email certain people~~
Update Website
Get Footage
Plan Demo Reel
Work on related projects
Pester Aaron and Co about some stuff
Finish Reel and Resume
Figure out where to apply to
Get some Interviews

Hmm... there's still a crap load I need to do... Gah this is so Frustrating!!!

I think for now I'm going to sleep.